A leaden snake slithers inside my intestines, its ceaseless squirming makes me want to retch. My eyeballs burn from constantly scanning the treeline for threats. The fear is beginning to fill me, and I can't stand it. I want to run, but I must stay. Their lives depend on it.
This is so raw and painfully rich, Grant! it was an overwhelming read for me because it felt as if i was there. The way you describe things and people is just RAW, like an open wound, i have no other word for it. In case you actually did experience something like this in real life i just felt placing a blessing on your soul, like a warm blanket of divine love. I guess being so intensely consumed can be a gift but is also dangerous if we cant let the flow of intensity move through us. Your writing almost scared me :). So intense. I had to detach from its energy a couple of times to ground myself.
Thank you! Some of the details were changed to protect the privacy of those involved, but it is based on real experiences. My work on the ambulance and my writing can be very intense at times, but I live for that. I guess writing and talking about it helps me to process. Thanks for reading!
Hi Grant. I was pondering on your response. I remember asking myself when i was reading your post if this was a real experience from your ambulance work yet i didnt ask you about it, it was too intense to go there. This morning as i was going on my daily walk, an ambulance passed by and it reminded me of your experience and writing. Ive sent a blessing to your heart, to honor this deep work that you do for others. Its not easy to be forced to stay present to so much pain and im glad you found a creative outlet for it. Take care! I hope we can still read each others posts from time to time even if they are so different.
I love your perspective on fear, that instead of paralyzing us it can energize us. It’s up to each of us to decide. Also you continue to tap into the primary fear we all have, of dying alone. The result being it’s up to us to use that fear to make sure we’re not going to be alone in our last days.
Thank you Grant for this mirror of the human soul! We often think that we would do better in someone else's situation, vut that's not true and your story help the readers understand that. When we follow the thoughts of a person we see that everything somehow make sense, they do their best and so we have the chance to accept the feelings and mistakes that someone else do and even more important is that we could learn a little bit of self compassion. Fear is a mighty feeling that always stays with us humans. It's less painful when we know that it's a common experience we all humans share and there is a cure: love is always stronger than fear! Thank you for sharing this beautiful, moving story with us!
This is so raw and painfully rich, Grant! it was an overwhelming read for me because it felt as if i was there. The way you describe things and people is just RAW, like an open wound, i have no other word for it. In case you actually did experience something like this in real life i just felt placing a blessing on your soul, like a warm blanket of divine love. I guess being so intensely consumed can be a gift but is also dangerous if we cant let the flow of intensity move through us. Your writing almost scared me :). So intense. I had to detach from its energy a couple of times to ground myself.
Thank you! Some of the details were changed to protect the privacy of those involved, but it is based on real experiences. My work on the ambulance and my writing can be very intense at times, but I live for that. I guess writing and talking about it helps me to process. Thanks for reading!
Hi Grant. I was pondering on your response. I remember asking myself when i was reading your post if this was a real experience from your ambulance work yet i didnt ask you about it, it was too intense to go there. This morning as i was going on my daily walk, an ambulance passed by and it reminded me of your experience and writing. Ive sent a blessing to your heart, to honor this deep work that you do for others. Its not easy to be forced to stay present to so much pain and im glad you found a creative outlet for it. Take care! I hope we can still read each others posts from time to time even if they are so different.
...wonderful descriptions and scene man...good goods...
I love your perspective on fear, that instead of paralyzing us it can energize us. It’s up to each of us to decide. Also you continue to tap into the primary fear we all have, of dying alone. The result being it’s up to us to use that fear to make sure we’re not going to be alone in our last days.
Thanks. There’s a reason we have the emotion, and it’s not just to make us feel bad. It supposed to point us in the right direction
Thank you Grant for this mirror of the human soul! We often think that we would do better in someone else's situation, vut that's not true and your story help the readers understand that. When we follow the thoughts of a person we see that everything somehow make sense, they do their best and so we have the chance to accept the feelings and mistakes that someone else do and even more important is that we could learn a little bit of self compassion. Fear is a mighty feeling that always stays with us humans. It's less painful when we know that it's a common experience we all humans share and there is a cure: love is always stronger than fear! Thank you for sharing this beautiful, moving story with us!